Serene ChaOs!

How do you do it?

The most common question Dave & I get asked everywhere we go with the kids. I don’t think it’s so much that we have 4 (we honestly don’t think 4 is THAT many kids) but the fact that they are so close together. My answer is, I honestly don’t know! I get up in the morning, fix breakfast, go over scripture with Franky or play scriptionaire on my Iphone before he has to go off to school (YUCK). The girls get up and I change them and get them ready for the day. I make sure the hubby’s uniform is ironed & ready to go…and my day starts. I run at the speed of life! Same routine everyday. I homeschool our 2 & 3 years old (YES, I teach them from colors and alphabet to biology and 3D shapes…we have a very high standard when it comes to education in this home, my son was learning Reformed Theology, Exegesis and Hermeneutics last year in 3rd grade) academics in the morning…along with the daily lessons God presents us with on patience, forgiveness, love, perseverance, obedience…sharing. Snack time and then, it is off to make lunch. After lunch they all go down for a nap and while they nap I cook dinner and occasionally blog. Afternoons are more creative. Arts and crafts, baking, painting, music (I play classical music for the girls…they love Mozart & Beethoven)…after that we go exploring outside. I lay a blanket on the grass or our drive way and I teach them about the heavens and our beautiful creator while they watch the clouds fly by. They love it! They ask me often, mommy are we going to watch the clouds today? It is the simple things I want them to cherish, the simple yet beautiful things I want them to soak in and bring life to their heart. When we come inside it’s shower time for all 3, dinner time followed by veggietales, bible stories and night-time prayers. All that while dealing with potty training, cleaning, doing a million dishes (we don’t use a dishwasher, I AM the dishwasher! LOL), organizing ( I am OCD about a clean and organized home…I am working on it!!!), laundry, folding clothes, putting away clothes, ironing and everything that happens unexpectedly during the course of our day. A gazillion Cheerios on the floor that have been conveniently stepped on, water leaking from sippy cups, the girls fighting, Kenny opening drawers or getting into the bathroom to unroll the toilet paper and drag it around the house!

I don’t know how I do it! Nevermind, I do…the GRACE of God and my AMAZING husband. God blessed me with a man that loves being a part of their lives, changing diapers, making them breakfast, changing them or simply laying on the floor and letting them jump on him like a bounce house! 🙂

God not only gets me through the day but allows me to enjoy my role as a wife and mommy to these precious 4 kids. Only a crazy person (or one that has been radically changed by the love of God) would think of having more! LOL Yet, we are. Only God could have done the work in our hearts to change it from “we are DONE!” to I must be obedient to the call…and allow God to guide us into how many children we should have. I had an IUD on. After God working in our hearts and much study of the word, we decided we could not violate our conscience anymore and to remove it. If we are going to claim to trust God then we MUST hand over to Him every single area of our lives, holding NOTHING back! So we stepped out of the boat and into the unknown…we know who holds out future and He has better plans for us than we do for ourselves. 🙂 I don’t just make it through my day, I am present and enjoying every moment. Not to say I don’t have days where I pray “Lord just let me get through today ALIVE!”. There are days where I either feel awful physically, mentally or I have just lost sight of the eternal and drowned in the temporal. I know what kind of day I have had depending on how I feel at night. When my head hits the pillow & I have had a day where I’m not present, my priorities as messed up (usually leads me to have a very bratty and ungrateful attitude!), I know it. The weight of my conviction falls on me (in the manner of a dump truck of guilt!), as I examine my day. I go over the things I did that I want to continue to do. The things I did and do NOT want to repeat tomorrow or the things I didn’t do and I want to start. I want a life without regrets, I don’t want to look back and say OHHH MAN, I MISSED IT! I SHOULD HAVE…blah blah blah. I want to continuously examine my parenting to ensure I am right on target with what God expects of me as a godly mother. My home is only explained as serene chaos…and I love it!

‘The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.”

About Disciple of Christ, Wife, Mommy of 5 blessings & NM Top Earner.

As a wife, homeschooling stay at home mom of 5 beautiful blessings, taxi, chef, doctor, philosopher etc, my life is full of adventures everyday. Most of the adventures lead me to find another lost piece of my identity concealed deep within my heart. I have always felt that there was more to life than just “making it through”. After 5 little ones (4 under 4 & in diapers), I lost all the pieces I had found along the way. I was left with thinking my identity was being a wife and mom. “This can’t be all there is to me!”, I reasoned. Who am I? What’s in my heart? Why do I thrive around beauty and my heart leaps for joy when experiencing something as simple as a sunset. A feeling like I am free, inside. My heart can breathe again as if it had been holding its oxygen all along. Did God make me like this, I wondered? I felt guilty for longing to let my heart be free once again. After all the picture we have of a “perfect” woman is one that is ALWAYS busy! Always volunteering, always giving of herself with never once a thought of the state of her inner being. That is why we lose our hearts. Vulnerability is not welcomed anywhere. Femininity in its purest form is frowned upon. Why? Because women are supposed to be tough! The kind of tough that is just wrong. We are trained to hide our vulnerability, along with our femininity, very early in life. The wounds we have received as little girls leave us reacting as women like that wounded little girl would: we retreat, we regress. The message we received? You can’t trust anyone! Your femininity and vulnerability is a weakness. Most of us walk through life “playing” or pretending to be someone we’re truly not. As adults, we make choices based on how we were programmed when we were young. The real us hides somewhere inside, waiting to be rescued. Like a wounded animal hiding from its master, wanting to trust and soar again, but so afraid of the uncertainty that awaits. The risk is not worth it, we think to ourselves. To be quite honest most of you have not found a safe place to be yourselves. Embarking on a quest to find the real you takes courage. God created you in His image. Adam bears the image of a warrior God. A man is supposed to tell the world, on God’s behalf, He will come through for you. Eve bears the image of a captivating God and her heart is made to show His beauty. A woman is supposed to tell the world, everything is ok. She is that calm & quiet spirit. Safety; a place of refuge and healing beauty. This is what our hearts long for; Eden. The place for which we were created. The place in our hearts we know we belong. I am just a simple girl on a quest to finding my heart. Not the way I was “shaped” by the world but the way God created me. I pray that this journey will be encouraging and uplifting to others. I am going on an adventure and invite you to come with me! I am very transparent because that is what this world needs! With all my love, Laire

Posted on February 4, 2012, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Love this article sis, and I definitely love these pictures! I love your family! What wonderful gifts God has blessed you with! ❤ 😀

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