My hearts cry…

Can paper ever contain

my heart’s passion and cry?

To be the godly woman you’ve created me to be,

A woman after God’s own heart.


Your love deeper than oceans,

your heart brighter than stars,

your goodness overtakes my emotions,

your healing covers my scars.


How humble I come before you,

bowing down before your throne,

waiting for the sacred moment,

the moment I have you to hold.


Tender mercy I cry Jesus,

Shower me with your grace,

I know I am not worthy,

yet you, saved me through faith.


How sacred you are to me,

yet I let you down one more time,

How i long to honor you

yet my will doesn’t yield to thine.


I offer you my life,

as a living sacrifice.

Take it, mold me and shape me,

live through me my beautiful Christ.


Break me and use me for your kingdom,

grant me understanding and wisdom,

make me a torch of your light,

Lord I beg you, let it shine bright.


Fire me up with a holy fire,

let me be set apart for you,

your life is what I desire,

Abba, let me be what you require.


I don’t have a lot to offer,

but my heart I bring to you.

Mold it, purify it…

make it everlasting true.


My savior how I love you,

words cannot convey.

How I feel when you are around me,

the whole universe flies away.

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About Disciple of Christ, Wife, Mommy of 5 blessings & NM Top Earner.

As a wife, homeschooling stay at home mom of 5 beautiful blessings, taxi, chef, doctor, philosopher etc, my life is full of adventures everyday. Most of the adventures lead me to find another lost piece of my identity concealed deep within my heart. I have always felt that there was more to life than just “making it through”. After 5 little ones (4 under 4 & in diapers), I lost all the pieces I had found along the way. I was left with thinking my identity was being a wife and mom. “This can’t be all there is to me!”, I reasoned. Who am I? What’s in my heart? Why do I thrive around beauty and my heart leaps for joy when experiencing something as simple as a sunset. A feeling like I am free, inside. My heart can breathe again as if it had been holding its oxygen all along. Did God make me like this, I wondered? I felt guilty for longing to let my heart be free once again. After all the picture we have of a “perfect” woman is one that is ALWAYS busy! Always volunteering, always giving of herself with never once a thought of the state of her inner being. That is why we lose our hearts. Vulnerability is not welcomed anywhere. Femininity in its purest form is frowned upon. Why? Because women are supposed to be tough! The kind of tough that is just wrong. We are trained to hide our vulnerability, along with our femininity, very early in life. The wounds we have received as little girls leave us reacting as women like that wounded little girl would: we retreat, we regress. The message we received? You can’t trust anyone! Your femininity and vulnerability is a weakness. Most of us walk through life “playing” or pretending to be someone we’re truly not. As adults, we make choices based on how we were programmed when we were young. The real us hides somewhere inside, waiting to be rescued. Like a wounded animal hiding from its master, wanting to trust and soar again, but so afraid of the uncertainty that awaits. The risk is not worth it, we think to ourselves. To be quite honest most of you have not found a safe place to be yourselves. Embarking on a quest to find the real you takes courage. God created you in His image. Adam bears the image of a warrior God. A man is supposed to tell the world, on God’s behalf, He will come through for you. Eve bears the image of a captivating God and her heart is made to show His beauty. A woman is supposed to tell the world, everything is ok. She is that calm & quiet spirit. Safety; a place of refuge and healing beauty. This is what our hearts long for; Eden. The place for which we were created. The place in our hearts we know we belong. I am just a simple girl on a quest to finding my heart. Not the way I was “shaped” by the world but the way God created me. I pray that this journey will be encouraging and uplifting to others. I am going on an adventure and invite you to come with me! I am very transparent because that is what this world needs! With all my love, Laire

Posted on September 24, 2010, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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